<rant>I know there are people out there who eat when they are stressed. I am the exact opposite. When something is really bothering me I let it manifest itself in ways that prevent me from wanting to eat. It’s probably just as unhealthy as someone who binges on a stressful occasion. I will admit that sometimes when I’m just a little bit stressed and eat I make poor choices, I don’t overeat though. I might just say screw it I’m eating that cookie(s). But when I let myself get so worked up eating is the last thing I want to do. Today was one of those days. For the past year Andrew’s twin brother’s girlfriend and I haven’t gotten along. Today I finally let everything build up and when I got angry with something she did today, I let it eat me from the inside out. We sent some not-so-nice emails back and forth, and finally spoke on the phone a little while ago. I’m a people pleaser, I get upset when people don’t like me, it bothers me so much, that this really stung. I should have just went about my day but unfortunately I wound up leaving work early, and stewing in my anger. Nothing has been completely resolved she apologized for somethings and I accepted her apology and for Andrew and his brother’s sake we have decided to start over. Is it the best option? Probably not. Will it make Andrew happy? Absolutely. Besides that his brother is now going to be my brother-in-law in a couple years, and who knows one day she might be my sister-in-law so I have to bite the bullet and work on this relationship no matter how badly I just want to hide my head in the sand. I’m more of an “ignore it and it will go away” type of person, not a strong characteristic. Maybe it’s time I grew up and just worked on things. </rant>
Wow okay sorry for all that, it feels good to vent though. And I’m sure at least one of you will have a similar story, or be able to share advice.
Enough about that, this is a food blog after all. For breakfast I once again had a sandwich thin with pb. I actually have pictures though! And Homegirl, the key to the perfect pb spreading is to spread it on thick in the middle and then work it towards the outside. No I’m kidding, there is no secret,. I do admit I have a little more then a serving perhaps 2.5-3 tablespoons I’m willing to get the extra calories though. I’m still losing weight so perhaps I’m doing something right.
Then the trouble began. Andrew came to take me out to lunch since I was so upset. We wound up going to my favorite salad bar.
I ate some but not all of this salad. If i had to guess I would say between 1/3 and a 1/2. It was:
- mixed greens
- and light balsamic vinaigrette.
And this is where my pictures from the day end. I came home early and began screaming about the whole thing to poor Andrew. I was so worked up! I give myself this nauseous feeling when I get upset, and eating seems impossible. I feel better now but not well enough to eat something, I did stop by my mom’s house though and picked up her left over chicken parm, so get ready to see it for lunch tomorrow!
I’m off to watch the New Jersey Housewives reunion, and then get some much needed rest.