Archive for March, 2009
Now that everything is official I can finally share with you guys what has had me so stressed out. Before I do though let me just say I know that things could be worse, and they are for a lot of people, but I have a lot of decisions to make that are going to have a large impact on me and Andrew.
Apparently the company I work for isn’t doing so well right now, (who is though really?) We had another big round of lay offs this morning and although I wasn’t one of them it was so hard sitting around all morning listening to people crying, and saying good bye to people I’ve worked with for over 3 years now. The people who had been there the longest were unfortunately the people laid off this morning, it was a very rough time at work. After the layoffs were complete we were called into a company wide meeting, where we were told that we were on a hiring freeze, and also there would be no raises this year. But then the part that had me worried the most was announced. They are cutting our hours, I will only be working Monday through Thursday, and each Friday I will have off for the next 6 months. They are allowing us to use vacation days for 2 of those Fridays a month, but I don’t have a lot of vacations days, and it will unfortunately not last me until the end of 6 months.
I know how lucky I am that I still have a job, I know that I could have been one of the many of people laid off this morning, but now with the 4 days off a month I’m losing more money then my rent. I don’t know what’s going to happen yet but I’ve lived in this apartment for almost 2 years now, our lease is up June 1st, and I have to make a decision on whether I can stay here and live tightly money wise for the next 6 months, or if I have to move back home. Again I know that I’m lucky to have that option, I don’t have a family to support and I can always pack it up and go back to my parents. But even though it’s not my fault I just feel like a huge failure, that I really can’t make it on my own and have to run back to mom and dad for help.
I have also lived with Andrew for 1 out of the 2 years I’ve been here, and I just can’t imagine not living with him anymore, he’s my best friend and I know we’ll still be together but not living together seems so weird now. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to figure everything out but I don’t know what to do, I love my family but living on my own for 2 years has been great. A lot of my stress has come from trying to figure out what to do about the living situation, can we continue living together in one of our parent’s houses or are we going to have to move separately?
The bright side is I will now have long weekends for the whole summer, but when you’re losing 20% of your income a month it’s hard to think of that as a plus. I’d so much rather work a 5 day week then have to deal with this.
After the meeting we were all told we could leave at 12 since obviously no one was going to be very productive. My eats today were completely boring. As you can imagine between being upset to see co-workers leaving, and worrying about everything I haven’t been very hungry.
For breakfast I had Chobani and granola.
When I was about 1/2 way done with this I found out someone I did not expect to be leaving was laid off, I got really upset and threw most of the rest out.
After coming home and talking to my mom and my friend, michelle on the phone I mixed up a smoothie, I knew I needed to eat but wasn’t hungry so I figured that was an easy thing to have. I enjoyed this out in the sunshine on my deck while on the phone with my mom.
This smoothie contained:
- POM juice
- 1 scoop protein powder
- and skim milk
So that’s it for now, I’ll be back tonight with my dinner post, I’m about to head out the door to go to my parents house to talk to my mom about everything, and hopefully get to the gym. I hope you are all having a great day!! Sorry for such a depressing post, I’m sure once I have everything figured out I’ll be back to posting like normal!
Thanks again for all your super sweet comments. I’ll be able to share everything tomorrow, but it’s going to be a pretty rough night for me tonight so I’m going to post quickly. Kate from Cooking With Kate left me a comment yesterday that said,
“…just know that “this too shall pass.”
What a perfect thing to remember when things get a little rough. Really my situation could be a lot worse and I also need to remember to count my blessings.
So let’s jump into today’s eats so I can go unwind and get some sleep!
I slept horribly last night, it took me forever to fall asleep, and when I did it was restless so I was exhausted this morning, I grabbed a Chobani Peach Yogurt on my way out the door.
Lunch today was not planned ahead so I ran out to the outlet center across the street and grabbed a salad.
This salad had:
- Romaine Lettuce
- red onions
- cheddar cheese
- and light balsamic vinaigrette
On the side I also had a 9 grain whole wheat roll.
I came home and decided instead of being here all by myself in the apartment I would go to my parents house for dinner. It helped me keep calm to be around my family for sure. We had pasta with spicy spaghetti sauce, on top of mine I added 1.5 tbsps of ricotta cheese.
It was a delicious meal and who doesn’t love a simple home cooked dinner with family?
Well I’m off to go to bed, I’ll be filling all you guys in on the source of my stress tomorrow. Enjoy you’re night!
Sorry I didn’t post yesterday or comment on all of your blogs. But thank you for all your kind comments. I have so much on my mind but unfortunately I can’t share it here just yet. This weekend was a tough one, I kept busy yesterday morning but then towards of the end of the day all the stress just hit me at once and I was crying on and off for a while. It feels weird that I can’t discuss anything on here just yet, it’s like I’m keeping a secret from my best friend or something, because so far this year I’ve shared almost everything with you guys, and I know that if I could tell you all what was going on you’d be able to offer some advice and kind words, which I really need right now.
Since that’s really all I can say, I’ll just move on to this weekends eats.
Yesterday morning I had to go to the chiropractor with my mom so I stopped on my way to Dunkin Donuts I was craving Ice Coffee.
I also picked up a multigrain bagel and took it back to my mom’s house to quickly eat before we had to leave. I used a small amount of butter on the bagel.
I ate a little more then half and then we were on our to the chiropractor. After our appointment we were on our way to check out an assisted living community for my grandparents. It was a really nice place and after seeing the menu I was really hoping we’d get to have some lunch there. Unfortunately we’d only get lunch if my grandparents came. The place was really nice and I’m hoping my grandparents decide to come here because it’s right down the street from where I work and I’d definitely get to see them a lot more often, as they live in the Poconos right now, and I don’t get to see them as often as I’d like.
Once I returned to my parents I had the unfortunate chore of laundry (way too much laundry, it’s been a while oops.) I had a piece of bread with pb since I was a little hungry.
On Andrew’s way home from work he stopped at Tropical Smoothie Cafe and got me the same smoothie I got a couple weeks ago. After a few sips I started to feel really itchy, and my leg was breaking out in hives. That’s the reaction I get to strawberries (which sucks because I love them), but the smoothie shouldn’t have strawberries in it, it didn’t taste like strawberries but I’m wondering if maybe the blender wasn’t properly cleaned between making mine and somebody else’s. Once I stopped drinking it within 30 minutes I felt fine. I only drank about a 1/4 of this gigantic smoothie but I figured I’d share a picture anyway.
Once I felt better we headed out to the gym. I was using the Lat Raise machine and an older guy just stood there watching me after one set he very rudely and loudly said “Are you going to be done with that soon?!” Dude the gym is empty move on to another machine for a few minutes. I told him I had more sets and he continued to stand there and watch me. Creep. Once I moved on I was setting the weights on another machine and someone asked me if I was using it, he said it a lot nicer so I let him use it first, but for real, the place was empty why was everyone trying to use whatever I wanted to? Then we were in the movie theater and I was using a treadmill, as I said before my heart rate monitor transmits and displays on treadmills next to me, after running for a few minutes, the guy next to me yelled in front of everyone there, “Do you have a heart thing on or something!?” Ugh so embarrassing I apolgizied and he said it was okay but he was only walking so of course my heart rate was higher and I guess it freaked him out a little. What a day.
For dinner last night I had my leftover pizza from Friday. I was literally craving it.
After dinner and moping around the house I got dressed and headed out to meet up with my friends, it was just what I needed to get my mind off of everything. I drank some vodka and diet cokes, which probably helped as well, we got home around 12:30 and I read and went to bed. I felt much better today then I did yesterday and got up and enjoyed a smoothie for breakfast. After my incident yesterday I was craving a smoothie and was happy to finally have one. It was a little overcast this morning but really warm so I enjoyed this out on the deck with Andrew.
This smoothie included:
- 1 Scoop protein powder
- 1 banana
- 1/2 a cup skim milk
- 4 ounces POM juice
- and 1tbsp pb
So yummy and just what I needed. I love smoothies for breakfast! After my smoothie we got dressed and ran some errands. I was feeling extrememly tired so we stopped to get coffee and some food. We decided to once again hit up Dunkin Donuts. I got a medium coffee with skim milk and splenda, and a veggie flatbread sandwich.
The flatbread sandwich was just okay, a little bland, I wish I had some hot sauce for it, if I got it again I definitely would spice it up a little, it’s a good option if your out and about though.
After visiting with Andrew’s parents, sister, and grandma we headed home. The sun had come out and it was beautiful I actually threw on some shorts and a t-shirt and sat outside on the deck reading, until a squirrel tried to join us and scared the crap out of me and sent me running back inside. I’m a baby I know. The sun went away as quickly as it had come out but we had already decided to have a bbq.
I had a veggie burger with a string cheese melted on top, with romaine lettuce, and pickles.
And also threw some sliced garnet yam on the grill for “chips”.
I think I liked them better grilled then baked, can’t wait to do this some more in the summer.
Now I’m going to spend some time catching up on my blog reading and then head off to bed. Hope you all had a fabulous weekend!
I am so incredibly thankful that this week is over. It’s been a tough one, it went by fast but I’m a little stressed out over something. Unfortunately I can’t go into detail until next week. So please excuse me, but this post is going to be a quickie.
For breakfast today I had a peach Chobani with my peak protein granola.
By the end of the week my desk is covered in those little post-it notes.
My lunch today came from Andrew’s boss at the pharmacy. They ordered sandwiches and they were gigantic so she wrapped up 1/2 and sent it home with Andrew for me. It was eggplant parm! Didn’t I just have that like Monday? Well I am not one to turn down free food so I brought it into today to lunch. This is actually only a quarter of it I did my good deed for the day and passed the other 1/2 on to one of the guys at work who forgot to bring something for lunch. Pay it Forward.
Because I got this a few days ago the roll was a little soggy so I removed that and just ate the eggplant, it was good, and much thicker then the ones I got for dinner on my birthday. Also less breading. But the sauce was just okay.
For dinner I had every intention of having a veggie burger. Well, that’s not entirely true. I wanted a veggie burger because I wanted pickles, and what goes better with pickles then a burger. Since I kindly gave away my last pickle on Saturday I stopped at the store to grab another jar but none of them were as bright green as I like so I sulked and grabbed a pizza crust instead. I decided to make a “meatball” and pineapple pizza, again.
I used 2 “meatballs” crumbled up, and a handful of pineapples, and mozzarella cheese, on a whole wheat crust, just I needed after such a bad day.
After digesting and watching TV, Andrew and I headed out to the gym. We were riding along talking when all of a sudden the street and traffic lights went out, we saw sparks flying, and the car in front of me slammed on their breaks. A telephone pole had fallen on a car just 2 cars in front of us. Andrew immediately called 911 but apparently others had already done the same because they already knew about the accident we were stuck there on the highway with live wires dangling just above our car. I was trying to look into the car to see if anyone was moving, it didn’t appear like there was. I was freaking out, if that had happened a second later that would have been us. It was a terrifying thought, and although I’ve said today was a bad day it put it all into perspective. We saw the driver on a stretcher leaving the scene in an ambulance but they were completely covered by a blanket, I just hope whoever that person was is okay. What a horrible thing to happen.
We wound up getting to the gym around 9:30 and that’s just too late for me, I worked out for a quick 40 minutes, and my stats were:
- Calories burned: 358 (40% Fat)
- Max Heart Rate: 170
- Avg Heart Rate 146
Not too shabby for a quick workout (mostly strength training). I’ll definitely be working out a lot harder tomorrow.
So my plans tomorrow are to go to the chiropractor, go take a tour of an assisted living facility with my mom (for my grandparents), which may or may not include a free lunch, and then later on go out with some friends that weren’t able to come out last Saturday when I celebrated my birthday. Should be another fun filled weekend! Hope you all had a great Friday night.
Every meal I ate today I would, or have already had, at some point for breakfast. Breakfast is my favorite meal so it’s not weird that a whole day’s eats could be considered a breakfast food. It’s a rainy gloomy day so I just stuck with my favorite foods for today.
For breakfast I had a delicious bowl of overnight oats. It contained 1/2 a cup oats, 1/2 a cup skim milk, cinnamon, and vanilla, with a scoop of pb on it of course.
As much as I love my yogurt and granola breakfasts, there’s nothing like oats to make you feel satisfied for hours.
Lunch I had a yogurt mess. It contained 1/2 a cup pb puffins, 1/2 a cup organic apple cinnamon morning o’s (whole foods brand), 1/2 a mango, green grapes, a banana, and of course a Vanilla Chobani.
It doesn’t look good at all does it? But it was delicious, it took me forever to eat. It was a really great lunch and something I will probably have again very soon.
For a snack around 3 I had an McIntosh apple.
I was craving eggs for dinner so I decided to just have that and make it a day of breakfast food. I had 2 eggs scrambled with lots of spinach, and a less then an ounce of Mexican blend cheese.
On the side I had Dr. Prager’s Potato Littles, they are obviously supposed to be for kids, but I like my food in fun shapes sometimes too!
And a veggie breakfast “sausage”
After dinner we caught up on some things on our DVR, including last night’s Biggest Loser and Lost. No Lost spoiler or anything but seriously, WTF is going on? So confusing!
While watching TV I decided to enjoy a serving of fro yo with some chocolate chips.
I’ve had a ton of sweets this week, a piece of chocolate birthday cake, and Ice cream cake Monday, Tagalongs yesterday, and Fro yo today. I know most of you allow yourself to have something for dessert each night, but it’s so weird to me that I’ve been craving sweets. As I’ve said many times I don’t have sweet tooth at all so to have this many sweets in a week is pretty unheard of for me. At least I’m keeping my portions small.
Well tomorrow is Friday! I’m so happy that this week is almost over, just one more day. I have no definite plans but some of my friends were in Savannah last week so I’ll probably be seeing them this weekend. What are you doing this weekend? Anything exciting?
I have another day of boring eats for you guys, but I was able to get to the store tonight to restock so tomorrow will be back to normal.
Unfortunately I needed to have another Clif bar for breakfast, thank god I got to the store today these keep me satisfied until lunch but they are so boring to eat.
I’m pretty sure this is my first time having the Blueberry crisp and I thought it was really good.
For lunch I had my leftovers from dinner last night.
Not pretty in the least but soooo good, I removed all the cheese off because there were no plates available at work and with the container I couldn’t put it in the microwave and the cheese just looked gross cold, the rest was fine though.
Around 3 I snacked on an orange.
See my sweet safety glasses in the background? Yeah I have to wear those whenever I go out to the factory at my work. I hate those things.
After work I hit up Whole Foods, I didn’t take a picture of all my purchases I completely forgot. I pulled a Meghann and as soon as I got home I put everything away, got changed and put on the Burn Fat and Boost Metabolism Jillian Michael’s DVD, so I wouldn’t have time to make up excuses. Since I just got my HRM I was dying to try it. I only made it 35 minutes in and kinda skipped the cool down, before I quit, I was too hungry to keep going by this time it was 7:30 and needed something to eat. But in those 35 minutes I wound up burning 350 calories I did modify some things and added weights just to make it a little more difficult. I really enjoyed the DVD though and it’s something I will definitely do on days I don’t usually go to the gym.
For dinner I wanted something fast and did not feel like cooking anything. I decided to have a massive smoothie.
This smoothie contained:
- 1/2 a cup of oats
- 1/2 a cup skim milk
- 1 scoop soy protein powder
- A gigantic handful of spinach
- 4 ounces POM juice
- and blueberries
This was super filling. This was my first time adding spinach to a smoothie, and although everyone swears you can’t taste it, I never believed them. Well it’s true! I put a crazy amount of spinach in there and did not taste it at all. I’ve never had a smoothie for dinner before but I assume it’s okay to substitute that meal with a smoothie, since there was so much going on in there I feel just as satisfied with that as I would a huge meal.
Well I’m off to pack/prepare my lunch for tomorrow, enjoy the rest of your Monday night!